I am on
DAY: 5
Of my journey out of Sexuality, I am feeling really good and strong right now, I am also very tired. So I am going to go to sleep after this. I am finding a lot of differences in my attitude towards life.
I see people differently, It's like Sexuality and giving into sex really makes the lenses that you look through life smudged and fogged. I can see clearly now the rain is gone would be a good song to describe the difference between purity and being sexually active. I have been tempted a lot to feed sexual thoughts, I have been denying them and I can feel instead of them being harnessed in my pubic area, the feelings of intimacy and love instead move more towards my heart rather than my penis. In other words, I have a greater love for people and I feel better capable of being the person I was created to be.
I haven't been tempted much with any sexually explicit media, mostly because I didn't watch a lot of mainstream t.v. today, but I am sure next time I do it will be much more of a temptation to think sexual thoughts.
I wanna hold conviction on the argument that C.S. Lewis used when talking about morality and sexuality. He noted a contradiction to the phrase "Feeding your Sexuality is just like feeding your stomach, everyone needs it to survive..." This is a sad theory, considering all of the problems that are associated with sex including; Retardation, S.T.D'S, a long list of negative things like, Murder, Envy, Lieing, that are associated with what the bible has to say about sex, and it is in direct contradiction to what the bible say's in 1 Thes. 4:3 "It is God's will that you should be sanctified: Avoiding any Sexual Immorality." If the bible be true, then even feeding a sexual desire prior to marriage would be acting against the will of God, our Father, Maker, and Creator. So where does this leave that theory? Well, Lewis spoke out against it claiming that If it be true, then why aren't there Porn for Food's like there are for Sex? well there is it's called the Food network, but besides that, I do believe that it is good to be Holy, for it is written in the New Testament, and much in there isn't harmul whatsoever. So where does it leave me?
I know for fact that much sex can lead to a person being "Fagged", worn out and just lazy. Feeding your sexual desires leads to poor health, negative self image, and just general poor association with the world around you, you become self-centered. In my argument that being "Pure" and "Holy" especially in the areas of Sexuality, which I am most concerned with... Paul and apostle for Jesus Christ the Son of God wrote this in Galations 5:19 "Now the works of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity, depravity, 5:20 idolatry, sorcery, hostilities, strife, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish rivalries, dissensions, factions, 5:21 envying, murder, drunkenness, carousing, and similar things. I am warning you, as I had warned you before: Those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God!" I can say that living in sexuality, I have experienced a good vast majority of all of these, and I can agree that if Sex is what caused these things are true, but it is labeling one thing another, like why is the earth here? Because God made it of course! in parallel, Why did I only become friends with a clique? Why was I angry? Why did I do drugs? Why was I insecure? Why did I have a poor self-image? Why did I hate modern people? Why did I have so much hatred? To be Honest, it was me bowing down to Satan any and every time, similar to now when I do the same thing and if I sin again, the same equation will play out.
I do find that living without sin as much as possible is a very hard life, that usually ends in failure, but... IT is rewarding attempting. I have gotten stronger as I stayed pure, as I marched forward attempting to break any addictions I have held, I did grow. Right now, I am tempted with Sex, Lawlessness, and Gluttony mostly. I smoke ciggarettes, I honestly don't enjoy them much, and they are something I am quitting from here on out as well. I vow not to, though it is written, "don't make a rash promise to God you will later regret" I do believe God understand my heart and looks past my words, I hope he will give me what I need rather than what I ask, especially if it be selfish.
I hope as I move on, I will be leveled in my temptations and that I can look through life in a clearer scope. I also hope and pray that I will be much more sound and whole as my body reworks itself out into it's natural shape and way of working. I do know that I haven't made a bad decision to be pure the rest of my life, let's just hope it isn't a bad Promise, after all, I am lucky to be alive today. I pray that when I get in Heaven, God will overlook my relapse's and failures. as hillsong said "A thousand times i've failed, still your mercy remains, should i stumble again, still i'm caught in your grace", the bible also says, "when you live a godly life, even your enemies will be at peace with you."
I am getting back on my path towards Godliness, I am quitting smoking, attempting to avenge my old self and be all I can, as Good and Perfect as possible, God's help all things will happen. I feel closer to God the more pure I remain. I will stay on the Path, only because God wills it, I am alive only because God wills me to be.
DAY: 5
Of my journey out of Sexuality, I am feeling really good and strong right now, I am also very tired. So I am going to go to sleep after this. I am finding a lot of differences in my attitude towards life.
I see people differently, It's like Sexuality and giving into sex really makes the lenses that you look through life smudged and fogged. I can see clearly now the rain is gone would be a good song to describe the difference between purity and being sexually active. I have been tempted a lot to feed sexual thoughts, I have been denying them and I can feel instead of them being harnessed in my pubic area, the feelings of intimacy and love instead move more towards my heart rather than my penis. In other words, I have a greater love for people and I feel better capable of being the person I was created to be.
I haven't been tempted much with any sexually explicit media, mostly because I didn't watch a lot of mainstream t.v. today, but I am sure next time I do it will be much more of a temptation to think sexual thoughts.
I wanna hold conviction on the argument that C.S. Lewis used when talking about morality and sexuality. He noted a contradiction to the phrase "Feeding your Sexuality is just like feeding your stomach, everyone needs it to survive..." This is a sad theory, considering all of the problems that are associated with sex including; Retardation, S.T.D'S, a long list of negative things like, Murder, Envy, Lieing, that are associated with what the bible has to say about sex, and it is in direct contradiction to what the bible say's in 1 Thes. 4:3 "It is God's will that you should be sanctified: Avoiding any Sexual Immorality." If the bible be true, then even feeding a sexual desire prior to marriage would be acting against the will of God, our Father, Maker, and Creator. So where does this leave that theory? Well, Lewis spoke out against it claiming that If it be true, then why aren't there Porn for Food's like there are for Sex? well there is it's called the Food network, but besides that, I do believe that it is good to be Holy, for it is written in the New Testament, and much in there isn't harmul whatsoever. So where does it leave me?
I know for fact that much sex can lead to a person being "Fagged", worn out and just lazy. Feeding your sexual desires leads to poor health, negative self image, and just general poor association with the world around you, you become self-centered. In my argument that being "Pure" and "Holy" especially in the areas of Sexuality, which I am most concerned with... Paul and apostle for Jesus Christ the Son of God wrote this in Galations 5:19 "Now the works of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity, depravity, 5:20 idolatry, sorcery, hostilities, strife, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish rivalries, dissensions, factions, 5:21 envying, murder, drunkenness, carousing, and similar things. I am warning you, as I had warned you before: Those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God!" I can say that living in sexuality, I have experienced a good vast majority of all of these, and I can agree that if Sex is what caused these things are true, but it is labeling one thing another, like why is the earth here? Because God made it of course! in parallel, Why did I only become friends with a clique? Why was I angry? Why did I do drugs? Why was I insecure? Why did I have a poor self-image? Why did I hate modern people? Why did I have so much hatred? To be Honest, it was me bowing down to Satan any and every time, similar to now when I do the same thing and if I sin again, the same equation will play out.
I do find that living without sin as much as possible is a very hard life, that usually ends in failure, but... IT is rewarding attempting. I have gotten stronger as I stayed pure, as I marched forward attempting to break any addictions I have held, I did grow. Right now, I am tempted with Sex, Lawlessness, and Gluttony mostly. I smoke ciggarettes, I honestly don't enjoy them much, and they are something I am quitting from here on out as well. I vow not to, though it is written, "don't make a rash promise to God you will later regret" I do believe God understand my heart and looks past my words, I hope he will give me what I need rather than what I ask, especially if it be selfish.
I hope as I move on, I will be leveled in my temptations and that I can look through life in a clearer scope. I also hope and pray that I will be much more sound and whole as my body reworks itself out into it's natural shape and way of working. I do know that I haven't made a bad decision to be pure the rest of my life, let's just hope it isn't a bad Promise, after all, I am lucky to be alive today. I pray that when I get in Heaven, God will overlook my relapse's and failures. as hillsong said "A thousand times i've failed, still your mercy remains, should i stumble again, still i'm caught in your grace", the bible also says, "when you live a godly life, even your enemies will be at peace with you."
I am getting back on my path towards Godliness, I am quitting smoking, attempting to avenge my old self and be all I can, as Good and Perfect as possible, God's help all things will happen. I feel closer to God the more pure I remain. I will stay on the Path, only because God wills it, I am alive only because God wills me to be.
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